You & Me

You’re the most beautiful thing that could happen to me
You’re the one I can rely on
The one I can love the most
The one I can trust.

You’re the one who, to my heart’s content
I can yell at
Be proud of
And surprise.

You’re my identity
My reflection
My soul
My life

You’re every breath in me
You’re every drop of blood in me
You’re my silly little munchkin
You’re my sweetheart.

You’re the one who calms me down
You’re the one who encourages me
The one who gets me through the longest
And the most unbearable hardships.

You make me
You break me
You’re the one with me for all of eternity
We can’t escape from each other.

You elate me
Like thousands of angels lifted my heart
You send butterflies fluttering in my stomach
When someone looks at me.

You have everything to do with me
You’re all of this to me
I love you, I love me
Because that you is me, because you are me.

Reflections and Regrets.

Cold,
Your embrace,
It’s the only warmth.
You’re touch is the feeling
That sets the tingle in my soul.

Still,
The breeze in my hair,
It’s the only movement.
To be here in your arms and stay
Motionless forever, it’s the satisfaction I desire.

Quiet,
The thudding of our hearts
It’s the only sound I can hear
We’re meant to be together
That’s all it could mean.

Smile,
It’s like sunshine in my life
The twinkle
It tells me am going to be fine
It tells me everything’s going to be okay.

Blessed,
We are together,
Your hand in mine
There’s no danger I fear now
You’re my safest place to hide.

……

Stop!
You’re walking to fast.
I can’t catch up with you.
You’re running away, you’re betraying me
You’re leaving me to the loneliest survival.

Shock,
My world turning upside down
My life rocked
My heart a hard rock
Sitting numb in my chest.

Broken,
That rock’s shattering into pieces
Its venom burning my body
The wounds deepening every second
My world tearing ever moment.

Bleed,
The drops refusing to ooze
From my now worthless body
Clotting inside
Aching every second of my existence.

Tears,
They’re streaming down now
Piercing my skin
Their taste the sourest thing
Ever known to mankind.

Burn,
My life in front of me
Set to flames
You set it to fire
And all that’s left is ashes.

Die,
After I write this to you,
It’s all I have left to do.
You’re responsible for all of this
For the hatred I now store for you, in my heart, in the archives of my memories.

Having you in my life
Every second spent with you
Every moment dedicated to you
This is all I reflect upon
This is all I regret.

Wounds...

It's been a long time and I still can't seem to sometimes get you out of my mind. The memories we created together were something else and sometimes still bring tears as they ring in my head. What I had with you wasn't something I don't think I'd had with anyone. You were special and you held my heart for a long time. And I know for a fact, I surrendered myself to you. I loved you sleflessly and unconditionally. And I know you loved me more than you even could love and you proved it by ways that are beyond anyone's imagination. When you first broke the news of our "seperation" to me I was devastated and I didn't quite WANT to understand that what you were doing was to bring out the best in me and that our conversations, our relationship and love was just holding me back. But I guess it was time we let each other go. But suddenly, I miss you. It's not that am in love with you again, it can't be and it isn't. It's just that sometimes I think that you were so special and the things you did for me were so extremely unnatural for anyone, that I don't think anyone else can match up to it. And now because of you am afraid I'll never be able to love again. Am not accusing you of anything, you were one of the most beautiful things that could happen to a girl. It's just I know am over you, yet somehow I can't seem to move on. I can't seem to convince myself that not everyone is like you, that I need to give someone else a chance. I may have partly given someone else that chance, but not completely. I can't get myself to feel the same way as I did about you. And knowing that you & I were never meant to be is what freaks me out even more. What if I really never manage to fall in love again? What if I never move on? What if I continue to expect the same thing from everyone? Am scared. You'll always be special no doubt, and you're still my friend. Just let's do something by which I can set myself free from this fear and give a chance to the person who actually waits to hold my heart the way you once upon a time did. Am hoping the change will come and hoping it won't affect us and the friendship we now share. But more than anything, am hoping I can move one.